Honestly, life’s getting so much better now. I have the PERFECT boyfriend I could ever ask for that I love so much. He makes me smile and laugh all the time. I have 2 of my bestfriends that I lost and drifted away from for a while back in my life. Iv missed you Tina & Austin. There’s still a bitch though that trys to bring me down, but its not working Brittany so you can keep trying, I have your boyfriend wanting me back in his life so it doesn’t matter. He may be your boyfriend, but he still thinks of me as his bestfriend. So keep bitching about me, you’re the reason we arnt friends and you’re the reason that Austin isn’t friends with his guy friends anymore. So fuck off, please. Kbye. (:

Yanno, I’m not mad. I never was. I don’t hate you, I never could. But do I trust you? Not at all. You lied, 3 times. Then you took a picture of what I said and sent it to him and asked why he told me? Lol. Really? Did you think I wouldn’t find out just because me and him wernt friends at the time. Ha. Well guess what? Me and him ate closer than ever now. Thanks.

Sooo life’s actually getting back on track for me. I have my brother back. The perfect boyfriend. My bestfriends that mean the world to me and a family that’s always there. What more could I ask for? Spring break, please hurry up. I’m really to get awaayyyyyy from tallanasty. To the beach with the boyfriend I go! (: well, schools tomorrow. Half way through the year, please speed up.

I can’t believe you lied to me. 3 fuckin times. The first time when i asked if you heard anything about the rumor. The second time when you called me on my birthday and I asked if you told clay. & the third over fb message. Like really?! I thought we told each other everything?? Guess not. Clays been there for me way more than you have, and I’m glad to have him back in my life and you out. I’m done. I can’t believe you.

Just as soon as I thought things were getting back to normal in my life and I didn’t have to worry about a thing, all that turns around once again.. I just hope it takes a curve and gets back on the right track again..

That feeling you get when you talk to a old friend that meant the world to you only a year ago and you talk to him for the first time in a while and catch up and realize how much someone can change in just a year.. yeah. Iv missed you Justin. Please come back to my life. We have SOSO much to catch up on. You use to be my bestfriend, I basically lived with you.. now look at us. :/ come back.

Okay, i know this is kinda out of no where.. but honestly? I was looking through all the pictures and videos we have taken together today.. & i miss those memories. Remember when we made those videos at your old house? & you pretended your hand was a monster coming out of my phone case? Remember when we skyped and i washed my hair and you made mac & cheese? Remember when we would always complain about how we didnt have a boyfriend during “cuddle season” (but look we both now. js. haha) Remember when we would stay up late at night and just talk about the randomest things and laugh non stop about the stupedist things? Remember when we met in 6th grade? & took chorus & dance together each year if it wasnt one or the other. & how in 6th grade we had like 3 classes together? Remember when we were the best of friends. Did legit, EVERYTHING together? Mall? Raa preformaces? Movies? Skate world? Fun station? When we fought? Cried? & eventually got to the point where neither one of us thought we would ever get to.. not talking. If you havent actually deleted all the pictures & videos of us.. go look at them. Look how happy we were when we were together. Loosing your friendship honestly has put me in a state of mind that im not really sure what to think anymore. I talked to austin for the first time in a while the other day cause i gave him back his jacket.. when i talked to him i realized loosing you and him was one of the things i never wanted to happen. I know we have said some things to each other, & yeah we probably meant it. But im just gonna say this, Im sorry. Im sorry brittany for everything. You may still hate me or whatever after this, but i just want you to know that i am really & truely sorry for everything. And about how you heard something after austins party that night? I have no idea what you are honestly talking about. Everything that i said to you that night i meant 110%. I really do miss your friendship & always coming to you with something random that happened. If you want to, and i know its probably something huge to ask.. but i think we should start over. I said i would always be here for you and im sticking by that. If you still dont wanna be friends or whatever, thats fine. But i will be here for you, always. Yeah, iv said that iv hated you and called you a couple names.. but i think that i just hated what we went through. & im not saying its going to be easy, because we both have like no trust for each other.. but its a start. & if you are actually willing to forgive & forget, then so am i. But if not, its all good. It is what it is. Honestly, idek why im wanting to do and say thing but i just.. idk. I miss you..

Same thing, different day. Does it ever end? These thoughts about my past? Why is it that once one little thing that sets me off everything else starts repeating through my head and just makes me even more upset. Ughhhh. Why is this generation so fucked up. I miss when I was little and I didn’t have a care in the world.

I miss you. & our friendship. & the way we would have long tight hugs and long heart to hearts at 2 in the morning. I miss the way when we saw each other no matter what drama went on through out the day just one hug and one I’m sorry fixed everything. But all that’s gone. Nothing will change. I will never be able to trust you ever again. I may forgive and “forget” but every little thing you ever said to me killed me. Why? Why’d you have to just up and leave out of my life? I miss you so fuckin much.

So you’re telling me that I’m not a true friend? That I’m never there for you? HAH. I’m a pretty fuckin damn good friend. Have I told your girlfriend that YOU cheated on her? Have I told her about anything that we have ever talked about? Didn’t think so. So before you go piss me off and make me fuckin cry because you hurt me so bad, think about how much I have on you. I’m a true friend so I would never tell her, but you’re getting to the point where I don’t even consider you a fuckin bestfriend anymore.